keep crying until my eyes so pain....
i keep wonder when my problems end........
i just want start my normal life
i wish i like other people happy life on...
even i lost my parents already + feel lonely alone at home when my brothers them go school
my friend already back JB
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this morning out with friend
we go buy pant & buy same style
so happy when buy something for myself
already so long didnt buy things for myself...
yesterday i keep crying when think about my past
feel myself so soh...
because a guy, i can don't care anything
leave my house
leave my hometown
leave my 2brothers
leave my EVERY THINGS
so hurt when thinking back for it
i don't know why nobody appreciate my love & effort
i scare alone....
i really dont want be alone
i don't this time is how
what will happen in the future....
keep asking,will my history repeat again??
will i get hurt again??
should i step out from the love game??
really love me or not?
or i just replacement for temporary?
i think next year 2010 sure i alone again with my birthday
never got any of my lover celebrate with me
why i say so...it is because wont lasting longer with me
why my life full of sadness...
awhile i happy
awhile i feeling down
keep missing some one is really suffer the feel
tears will suddenly roll down my face
that feeling is hard to describe
when crying, will wish some one lend me the shoulder
feel my world so cold....
what & how my life could be in the future??