i know myself become so worse of this illness
just now take bath
don't know why my tears sudden roll down my face when thinking that he already realise i got depression
there are many things of my own self things haven let him know
let him know
im sure.......
[sigh]
yesterday go see doctor
in doc's room
i told her every things what had happen on me
then doc ask me continue eat medicine as usual
is it i have to depend on medicine to control my illness??
is it if i didn't eat medicine ,i wil become serious??
become mental problem??
am i??
due to this problem...
i just know myself not suit in paktor
better be friend rather more than that
only my closer friends know my background well
if ask me tell every things my own background & family background
i wont tell
it is because previous i honest told every things about myself & my family things
until myself been hurt
in love game
i always been hurt by guys
all is my fault
all is my stupid don't know do the things right
compare with other gals....
im so worse
next month december x-mas & new year eve
i sudden think back my exbf say the words to me
he say want me see me alone celebrate x-mas & new year eve for this year
he say that even he not with me already
also dont want see me celebrate with people
it is because he say that curse me will be alone forever
well.....
i don't have any comment on it
i don't mind im alone
i believe i can alone