is really i thinking to much???
i don't know....
but i really didn't feel dou anything at all
just got a feeling of fear only
why???
what i fear now??
why my heart keep unstable???
my heart keep telling me that there are something wrong between us
just i don't where & what's wrong
is it because of we too suddenly together?
mind keep thinking that i become replacement
why i feel myself waiting another guy for really care me????
am i think to much???
is it????
if yes that i am thinking too much,then how?
why i didn't feel any secure of love???
WHY?!
is my problem again??????
i already keep try my best to cheer him up
is it not enough ?
why i keep feel that his heart don't have me gam???
is it because of i don't have confident to myself???
why i so useless.....
why i just know crying...
why i still cant handle love problem....
i just want a simple love only...
with happy life
im so lonely........
very lonely.....
i need some1 so much since many things had been gone in my life
i soon feel myself "deng mm ju le"
i really don't know how to continue with my life
i really want freedom from my problems
i want leaving my hometown
once again i silently crying
while write this blog
nobody understand my feel for lost many things in my life at once
mum&dad im so miss you
why you two so early leaving me...
i still need you two in my life
but you two just gone in my life
every night keep hoping you two still alive
i really cant face the truth of your death
i don't believe it......
i thought got bf&give up every thing
then come kl live with him
can change my life....
but im wrong
im so sorry to my parents
sorry for being stupid give up every thing because of kuen yen
because of his promise before
i keep don't mind how he treating me bad
don't mind he keep hurting me
don't mind he scold me
but im SO MIND HE LEAVING ME!!!
now i lost every things....
im scare i lost loon also
im scare feel the love hurt again
i really no confident
my life full of fear
what make me happy now...
soon will hurt 1of us in 1day
when???